You Are Not Alone

I finally understood why he could switch from loving me to cold hatred in seconds. The amygdala hijacking explains everything. After 3 years of blaming myself, I know now it was never about me. His prefrontal cortex simply cannot regulate the rage response. Reading about the corrupted reward system made me realize every reconciliation was just dopamine harvesting. This site saved my life.

She came back again last night. Crying, apologizing, saying she changed. I almost let her in. Then I remembered what Dr. Salinas explained about hoovering — its not love, its the withdrawal of narcissistic supply triggering their corrupted reward circuit. The nucleus accumbens needs its fix. I stayed strong. Day 47 of no contact.

Can someone explain why I still dream about him every night? Its been 6 months since I left. I know intellectually that he has reduced gray matter in the insula, that he cant feel empathy the way I do. But my body still misses him. The trauma bonding chapter helped me understand the cortisol-oxytocin cycle but when will it stop?

My mother is a narcissist. I spent 35 years trying to earn her love before finding this site. The chapter on epigenetics blew my mind — the trauma she inflicted on me as a child literally altered my gene expression. But knowing that my brain can heal through neuroplasticity gives me hope for the first time.

I just got out 2 weeks ago. Everything hurts. I cant eat. I cant sleep. I keep checking his social media even though I know I shouldnt. Please tell me this gets better. He told me no one would ever love me like he did and I believed him.

I finally understood why he could switch from loving me to cold hatred in seconds. The amygdala hijacking explains everything. After 3 years of blaming myself, I know now it was never about me. His prefrontal cortex simply cannot regulate the rage response. Reading about the corrupted reward system made me realize every reconciliation was just dopamine harvesting. This site saved my life.

She came back again last night. Crying, apologizing, saying she changed. I almost let her in. Then I remembered what Dr. Salinas explained about hoovering — its not love, its the withdrawal of narcissistic supply triggering their corrupted reward circuit. The nucleus accumbens needs its fix. I stayed strong. Day 47 of no contact.

Can someone explain why I still dream about him every night? Its been 6 months since I left. I know intellectually that he has reduced gray matter in the insula, that he cant feel empathy the way I do. But my body still misses him. The trauma bonding chapter helped me understand the cortisol-oxytocin cycle but when will it stop?

My mother is a narcissist. I spent 35 years trying to earn her love before finding this site. The chapter on epigenetics blew my mind — the trauma she inflicted on me as a child literally altered my gene expression. But knowing that my brain can heal through neuroplasticity gives me hope for the first time.

I just got out 2 weeks ago. Everything hurts. I cant eat. I cant sleep. I keep checking his social media even though I know I shouldnt. Please tell me this gets better. He told me no one would ever love me like he did and I believed him.